Busy Bee

I am tired. Just tired. These past four days (Dec. 26-29) I was pretty busy. Pretty busy dancing here and there.

So, I can’t quite remember if I mentioned that I do cover Kpop dances and I am part of a cover group. I am too lazy to scroll down my old blog posts. Haha! Anyway, so my original cover group is called Mackerz. Yes, it is a pretty weird and funny name for a cover group. I’ll explain it maybe some other time? When I feel like it. Now I was asked by someone if I could be part of an Afterschool cover group. I agreed, of course with the permission of my friends (Mackerz). I always wanted to cover AS dances.

I’ll fast forward everything and start off with December 26. It was the day before the competition of the AS group I was in. We had not much time to practice and crammed most of our routine that time. So we practiced for five hours and then I also subbed for an SNSD group (most of my AS group mates were also in that group). I had to learn other dance routines and it was crazy but I was able to manage.  Subsequently I had a difficult time going home because it was rush hour and I was commuting. Almost all the jeepneys were full. It took me an hour before deciding to ride the train. I dropped off just one station away were I was from. It was kinda waste of my money but I needed and wanted to go home. It took me fifteen long minutes before I was able to find an almost full vehicle. I grabbed the opportunity and hopped in. I got home like late in the night. I think I was more exhausted trying to get home than practicing, now that I think about it.

December 27 came. I wasn’t sure if I actually felt nervous or what. I can’t remember. Anyhow I came to the event in the afternoon since I vowed to myself I shall not spend money eating there at the place. I needed to save every penny I had left. So I ate lunch at home. Moving on, we performed at around 5:00PM. That was when the nervousness came. I believed I wasn’t prepared but I had to dance in front of the judges like I have been practicing our routine for weeks. Gladly I was satisfied with my performance in general but I think I could have done better.

I went home early because again I did not wish to eat there. I rather eat at home where it is for free. Haha! Also, I was not expecting for us to win at all considering that we only practiced the performance for a day.

At home I ate and then watched Yoochun’s drama “Missing You”. They actually delayed an episode if I am correct. I was watching the 14^th episode that night but it should have been the 15^th if it wasn’t for the holiday break. I was like spazzing and preventing myself to shed tears. Anyway enough about the drama, (I’ll save my rants and thoughts about this drama for another blog post) later that night I received good news that we won the ‘Female Group Category’ which was a total surprise! I mean, I don’t know how that happened but I was thankful anyway. The next day we had another practice. I don’t want to push through anymore since I felt so bushed already… but I choose to do it so I needed to stick to my decision.

December 28. I went to our rehearsal and struggled a lot. I wasn’t that familiar to “The Boys” of SNSD. I always get my steps wrong and I was always unsure of what I was doing. I really got disappointed in myself. I wished I came more prepared but I just wasn’t.  On the bright side it was easier to go home compared to last time. Then I watched the next episode of ‘Missing You’ trying to hold my emotions in. It was a very heart wrenching episode okay. I slept like 12 midnight even if I know I needed to wake up early the next day.  

December 29. I think I was more anxious that day than I was last two days ago. It was my first time to cover SNSD seriously. What I mean by ‘seriously’ is that I’d be dancing to their songs a lot longer on stage. So I was covering Seohyun that time. I was freakin’ nervous… like crazy because I really ain’t prepared for this. As a result, I miserably failed on stage. I forgot a lot of the steps, got lost on stage.... I messed up period! Oh I was more disappointed afterwards. I wish I could rewind everything and start all over. Huhu. On the lighter note, the event was fun. I was just not such a fan of big crowds though. I had eye candies around the event just to make myself feel better. I won’t tell who of course! Haha! Who knows they might be reading this. (I wish! XD) I can’t classify them in the ‘crushes category’ because I don’t see them often (unlike my school crush) plus I only look for them when Kpop events come! So I guess they would stay as eye candies? Blah, I am not sure. My friends were also there to join me that time so I was more comfortable. We had laughs and we caught up with each other at least. Although I was sad because I had no money to buy fulfilling food!!! I did not want to spend too much.

We ate breakfast at KFC but when lunch came I only ate a stick of somewhat dry and cold BBQ. I did not buy that, my friend just gave it to me. Thank you for that! I also consumed half a cheesecake with my other friend. Then afterwards I drank milk tea. My stomach got temporarily full at least. That is the result of having no money or not wanting to spend too much. Haha!

These past four days were really crazy! I don’t think I would dare do that again! I don’t think I could anymore. I am happy I survived though! Until next time!

Here is my performance in my Afterschool cover group (I am the one who did the Kahi tap dance):