I remembered this one occurrence or whatever you call it, wherein there was a guy who seemingly found me attractive. I actually have met him before, well we were just acquaintances though. Well, so I kinda said that he was not my type and that sort of made me look bad? Anyway, you see I am not saying the guy was ugly or anything like that (couldn't even remember his face that well) and I'm purely flattered someone actually likes me but that is it. I think I sounded harsh though (but I just said it plainly as far as I could recall, and I just shared it to my friend). Yeah, you'll be telling me that I haven't even given that guy a chance, but I already said he ain't my type? I am sorry for that but maybe because I wasn't that interested in being in a relationship for now (not that I think it will get to that point) so I said that statement?
The dating world does make me curious but not to the extent that I want to be in it just yet. Besides I don't think I am obliged to like him back right? (clueless girl here) I felt like I am forced to like him just because he likes me. I don't want that. I am that person who wants things to go its natural way, or maybe I am just over thinking again. Meh, I don't think I made sense and was successful to get my thoughts across because I am just really clueless with romantic love and anything else related to that. I pity myself sometimes but hey, love will come to me eventually so I'll patiently wait.
On the other hand, I think I did kinda reject some guys... I think. I just don't know how to accept another person's feelings okay? I always get misunderstood and I over think and panic. I think they also misunderstood my actions towards them? I really don't mean to. Trust me, I am one lost girl when it comes to that. Plus I think my head is still stuck in Fantasy World wherein you can find my dream boy running around the green meadows with his hand intertwined with moi. Ah yes, I still have my own little fairy tales going on in my mind. Say whatever you want but that is solely the truth.
My close friend told me I have high standards, oh man, I can't believe I do either. How do you even make it un-high? So probably that was also one problem with me? If you can actually consider it a hindrance. I keep telling myself, "I am not some great girl to even dare look for a greater guy." But I do. It's really frustrating. I believe those pretty flower boys I admire so much, were the main reason I had high standards in the first place. Wishing you could meet someone like him. How could I possibly meet someone who is almost perfect in my eyes? My dream boy that I will only forever dream about. So I guess I just dream (oh yes very redundant) of the wonderful relationship with him and never got interested in Real Life Dating? Meh, what the heck am I saying. Anyway in short, swooning over pretty-perfect-talented-caring boys is not that healthy because it can lead you to have high standards for men and probably be alone the rest of your existence.
I should wrap things up before I continue to talk non-sense. I seriously think I was not able to express my thoughts well. Anyway, for those K-pop lovers out there this song truly fits having standards.Juniel - Pretty Boy ("Fall in L" is the name of her album where I
