It has been long since I have
written a blog post and I am dying to let my feelings out as well as my
thoughts. A crazy emotional roller coaster ride. That is how I could describe
the past few weeks that went by. I never felt so many strong emotions, both
positive and negative, all in a short span of time. I am not such an outspoken
person so I keep things to myself and it seriously ain’t helping. I don’t know
if it just me or people are just being difficult when there is actually a way
to make things easier. I think I am about to explode sooner or later.
As of now… I am just longing to see
my closest friends and tell them all my resentments and rants. However I just
have to suck it up and carry on with my life.
Now more on my ‘crazy emotional
roller coaster ride’… I am not quite sure why but at present it seems to me like
almost everyone around me are emotionally unstable at the moment. Again maybe
it is just me who thinks so. It is really driving me nuts, like seriously. I am
not sure how to get along with them. I also don’t know how to react properly at
some situations anymore. I think too much. I complicate things when it shouldn't be. I feel so weak right now. I am so lost and I don’t even know the reason. I
am bothered by little things and care too greatly on what other people think of
me. I don’t want anyone hating on me, but the hell you truly can’t please
everybody. I kept on reiterating that to myself but it is not working. People
abuse my kindness. I let them get away with it. People are too insensitive and blind
to deal with existing issues. I let them go on being like that anyway. Ugh. I
am totally clueless as what I should really do right now. I can’t even express myself so profoundly. Just to sum things up my ‘camaraderie’ is
hiding from me. I seem to get ticked off so fast now. I seem to get so paranoid
about things so easily. I am wishing that all of these would be over soon. I
need a break. A break from everything.
I don’t know if I am actually
making sense with this post. If not, then it just goes to show how confused I
am. Anyway, I’ll find something more interesting and light to talk about when I
find the time. I guess I’ll see you guys another time.
